# M
A sanctuary for my discombobulated emotions; a containment of malicious tirades and contrasting ecstatic episodes. Past introspections for my future reference. A regulator of sanity. A child entering the mercilessly daunting adult world.
Thursday, March 29, 2012 11:29 PM
I'm not going to lie and sugercoat things.
I really miss you.
I really miss you.
Wednesday, March 28, 2012 3:58 PM
I miss you.
I heard from many you were proud to sever ties with me, you were happier than usual.
Honestly you're a fucking douchebag.
I regret ever meeting you and I condemn your existence.
I heard from many you were proud to sever ties with me, you were happier than usual.
Honestly you're a fucking douchebag.
I regret ever meeting you and I condemn your existence.
Monday, March 26, 2012 10:47 PM
I fucking HATE myself.
90% for Accounting, I'm getting from bad to MOTHERFUCKING worse.
Microeconomics:
Week 1: 100%
Week 2: 100%
Week 3: 88% (below average)
Week 4: 71%
FUCK. Just FUCKING FUCK. FUCK ING HELL.
90% for Accounting, I'm getting from bad to MOTHERFUCKING worse.
Microeconomics:
Week 1: 100%
Week 2: 100%
Week 3: 88% (below average)
Week 4: 71%
FUCK. Just FUCKING FUCK. FUCK ING HELL.
Sunday, March 25, 2012 12:58 PM
So fucking out of it.
You make me feel like fucking shit. Honestly.
90% for Accounting test. Fuck you bitch. Everything was a careless mistake as well. The thought of you fucking sickens me.
You make me feel like fucking shit. Honestly.
90% for Accounting test. Fuck you bitch. Everything was a careless mistake as well. The thought of you fucking sickens me.
Monday, March 19, 2012 3:17 PM
You're Fantastic, Baby
HOHOHO funny pun LOL T.O.P... farrrrk
Release
2:53 PM
It seemed like for so long, I had been holding so much inside of me I couldn't wait to let go of. I couldn't write on my Tumblr for the fear of being judged or too many people knowing my 'sob' stories, I couldn't talk to my friends, my family or my boyfriend. By any chance someone comes across this, I deleted my Tumblr because I was tired of unwanted attention. With a Blogspot, it feels like I'm reliving the past! No followers, no ask boxes, no attention.
It's scary to have dreams. One of the reasons why I cannot confide in anyone is because no one believes in me. Everyone would laugh and snicker at the fact I think I can do well. It's probably best to keep all these unrealistic ambitions to myself.
Ever since university started I've been putting so much pressure on myself to excel. The slightest mistake would not do. I continue to push myself and get insanely disappointed and angry at the smallest mistake.
I have been maintaining 100%s for Microeconomics for more than a month now, and today I broke that streak. I'm in such a weird place right now. My mind is not where it should be and I forgot what I was meant to do. I accidentally shut a test which made me lose 2%, and for the one I did do, I struggled to get the right answers, and they did not come to me like they did with the other tests. This test was lenient; they prompted you when your answer was wrong and gave you another try to get it right. Even with that leniency, I ended up only getting 89%. I feel like crying. I've lost marks for Microeconomics. Today in class, I forgot to complete a graph which also resulted in my teacher deducting marks. Just today alone, I've lost 2.2% on Microeconomics. 80% is a HD. I cannot afford to fuck up anymore. More marks gone and there goes the HD, there goes my chances of transferring. I'm currently sitting on 7.8/10 for my tests. FUCKING DISGUSTING. Stuffing a day fucked up so much for me. Microeconomics has always been my best subject but I.. just lost it today.
I've been struggling in Accounting and Finance, it's a difficult unit to take. I've only gotten 95% for both tests. This sits me at 9.8/10 for Accounting if my calculations are correct. Seriously, this is fucking stupid.
Lol I don't even want to talk about Commercial Law. Sitting on 19.2/20 BECAUSE OF A FUCKING CARELESS MISTAKE. Seriously I'm such a lazy fucker. If I didn't misread the question, or have read the text more carefully, I wouldn't have lost any marks. I fucking hate myself and am utterly disappointed.
I give up on Business Statistics. It's too difficult but I'll try to get a HD still. No tests so far so I can't conclude on my knowledge.
I hate how everyone has a leverage over me. I have not done any business subjects in my life. I'm so disadvantaged and it's humiliating when the teacher chooses me to answer a question, only for me to answer it wrongly in front of the whole class.
I need to pick it up.
I need to pick myself up.
It's scary to have dreams. One of the reasons why I cannot confide in anyone is because no one believes in me. Everyone would laugh and snicker at the fact I think I can do well. It's probably best to keep all these unrealistic ambitions to myself.
Ever since university started I've been putting so much pressure on myself to excel. The slightest mistake would not do. I continue to push myself and get insanely disappointed and angry at the smallest mistake.
I have been maintaining 100%s for Microeconomics for more than a month now, and today I broke that streak. I'm in such a weird place right now. My mind is not where it should be and I forgot what I was meant to do. I accidentally shut a test which made me lose 2%, and for the one I did do, I struggled to get the right answers, and they did not come to me like they did with the other tests. This test was lenient; they prompted you when your answer was wrong and gave you another try to get it right. Even with that leniency, I ended up only getting 89%. I feel like crying. I've lost marks for Microeconomics. Today in class, I forgot to complete a graph which also resulted in my teacher deducting marks. Just today alone, I've lost 2.2% on Microeconomics. 80% is a HD. I cannot afford to fuck up anymore. More marks gone and there goes the HD, there goes my chances of transferring. I'm currently sitting on 7.8/10 for my tests. FUCKING DISGUSTING. Stuffing a day fucked up so much for me. Microeconomics has always been my best subject but I.. just lost it today.
I've been struggling in Accounting and Finance, it's a difficult unit to take. I've only gotten 95% for both tests. This sits me at 9.8/10 for Accounting if my calculations are correct. Seriously, this is fucking stupid.
Lol I don't even want to talk about Commercial Law. Sitting on 19.2/20 BECAUSE OF A FUCKING CARELESS MISTAKE. Seriously I'm such a lazy fucker. If I didn't misread the question, or have read the text more carefully, I wouldn't have lost any marks. I fucking hate myself and am utterly disappointed.
I give up on Business Statistics. It's too difficult but I'll try to get a HD still. No tests so far so I can't conclude on my knowledge.
I hate how everyone has a leverage over me. I have not done any business subjects in my life. I'm so disadvantaged and it's humiliating when the teacher chooses me to answer a question, only for me to answer it wrongly in front of the whole class.
I need to pick it up.
I need to pick myself up.